Author. Marine captain. Porn star. Fundamentalist survivor. Addict in recovery. Advocate for the unrepresented.

Rich Merritt has lived every one of those lives. Jennifer Egan profiled him on the cover of The New York Times Magazine in 1998, in a story about gay service members under Don't Ask, Don't Tell. His new novel Trials of a Legal Junkie and the second edition of his memoir Secrets of a Gay Marine Porn Star arrive October 6.

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Rich Merritt was raised in a strict fundamentalist Christian community in Greenville, South Carolina, and educated from elementary school through college at Bob Jones University before transferring to Clemson. He served in the United States Marine Corps from 1985 to 1998, leaving as a captain, and earned his law degree from USC in 2001. He has practiced law in Los Angeles, Atlanta, and New York, and written for the Navy-Marine Corps Times, California Lawyer, and the Atlanta Journal-Constitution. He lives in Palm Springs, where he works as a public interest lawyer and co-hosts a video podcast on recovery, sex positivity, and the impacts of white Christian nationalism.

Book cover titled "Trials of a Legal Junkie" by Rich Merritt with a smoky vapor and a burning cigar on a wooden surface in the background.

Trials of a Legal junkie

Trials of a Legal Junkie follows Robert Marion — a former Marine captain whose bestselling memoir has turned him into a national sensation. But behind the designer shirts and the chase for a movie deal, Rob is unraveling. Haunted by the death of his best friend and the long shadow of a fundamentalist childhood, he watches his career dissolve, his relationship collapse, and his occasional drinking harden into a lethal dependence on crystal meth.

Redemption arrives in the unlikeliest place: a Georgia sober living home, where Rob has to finally drop the narrative of his fabulous life. Trading a high-powered law career for work as a public defender, he discovers that liberation isn't found in a movie deal — but in service, surrender, and the quiet discipline of a single breath.

Available Summer 2026

“Rich Merritt has lived enough for ten novels — and somehow survived to write the funniest, fiercest, and most brutally honest one. Trials of a Legal Junkie is a wild ride through excess, collapse, and comeback, powered by a heart of gold that refuses to stay tarnished."

— Charles Casillo. Author of Elizabeth and Monty and Marilyn Monroe: The Private Life of a Public Artist

Book cover titled "Secrets of a Gay Marine Porn Star" by Rich Merritt, second edition. The cover features a shirtless man with short dark hair and light skin, and a small photo of a Marine in uniform with an American flag in the background.

Secrets of a Gay Marine Porn star

Here's the true story of Rich Merritt — the good son, the teacher's pet, the model Christian student who spent the first two decades of his life inside a fundamentalist cult that taught him gay people were worthy of death. The Marine captain who served under Don't Ask, Don't Tell while secretly shooting gay porn films — a dangerous rebellion against the institutions that had tried to dictate his life.

When The New York Times Magazine profiled him anonymously on its cover, the walls between his worlds came crashing down. The gay press outed the porn. The Marines came asking questions. And the man who had spent his entire life performing different versions of himself for different audiences suddenly had nowhere left to hide.

What followed was a spectacular unraveling — addiction, a shattered career, a suicide attempt, and a fight for survival that nearly killed him. By turns harrowing and heartbreaking, angry and darkly funny, Secrets of a Gay Marine Porn Star is the story of a man who refused to let anyone — gay or straight, fundamentalist or liberal — define who he was allowed to be.

This second edition includes revelations that The New York Times does not want you to know — and the confession Merritt wasn't ready to make the first time around.

“Readers don't just discover a memoirist — the memoirist discovers himself. And any life worth examining is worth a second look. Rich Merritt is honest, hilarious, and even less interested in behaving this time around."

— Greg Cope White. Author of The Pink Marine; writer, Netflix's Boots

Available Summer 2026

Book cover titled 'Spiritual Probation' by Rich Merritt, featuring a silhouette of a woman holding scales and a tree, with a background of text and symbols.

Spiritual Probation

Bob Johnson University, August 1990. Saddam Hussein has invaded Kuwait, the world feels close to apocalypse, and “Dr. Bob" is calling from the pulpit for a bulldozer to drive the United Nations headquarters into the East River. Ten thousand students applaud. Two of those hands belong to Nate O'Connor — the good son, the model Christian, the senior who has spent twenty-two years inside the only world he's ever known.

Nate doesn't yet know he's in a cult. He knows he loves his best friend Danny Becker, the pastor's son and partner-in-crime since childhood, and their friend Tom, a theater major who can talk his way out of anything. He knows he's starting to love Angela, a sharp law student he's met across enemy lines at a “worldly" university. He knows he's reading a professor's course on “Modern Cults" and noticing, uncomfortably, how well the definitions fit the place teaching them. And he knows he's been placed on spiritual probation — the campus's highest mark of shame, reserved for the students who will almost certainly not be coming back.

Spiritual Probation is a novel about the year of a young man’s tragedy and great losses: his faith, his idealism, and the only identity he's ever been allowed to have — and begins, slowly, to build something truer in its place. By turns furious, hilarious, and deeply tender, it's the story of what it takes to walk out of a cult while everyone you love is still inside.

“Setting his tale inside the closed society of a fundamentalist university, Rich Merritt tells a fascinating story that is alternately disturbing and inspiring. Spiritual Probation opened my eyes and touched my heart."

— Joe DiPietro Tony Award–winning playwright of Memphis

“Merritt's is a very human story — with bright, promising young people caught in an oppressive, intrusive ideology and thrown into the most senseless tragedy. … This story is our story."

— Camille Kaminski Lewis, Ph.D. Author of Klandamentalism: Bob Jones at the Intersection of Revivalism, Politics, and White Supremacy

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